When we Blame God for Pain and Suffering

It’s 4:30 a.m. and I awaken with a start. I listen for a second wondering what woke me. My toddler is snoring softly beside me and the two of us are warm and comfy snuggled together. I can hear Joshua breathing through the baby monitor and the gurgling of Caleb’s turtle tank filter. Lines from […]

Thankfulness in the Face of Hope

Last year I wrote Thankfulness in the Face of Grief. It was written with a knife. The pain in my heart as I struggled to praise God was nearly unbearable. Is it possible to experience thankfulness when looking back? It’s hard to comprehend that an entire year has gone by. 365 days of grief, sorrow, […]

Anxiety, a Lesser known Part of my Grief

Anxiety has become far too familiar to me since Rebekah’s accident. Just as grief is now a part of every aspect of my life, anxiety has crept in also. I’ve been told I need to redirect my thoughts.  Have any of you tried to do that?  Seriously, it is hard! I’ve also been told to […]

The Faith Cycle

It has been 9 months since I lost my Rebekah.  Nine horrible months.  The journey of brokenness, pain, doubt, anger, anxiety, and confusion has been the worst experience of my life.  I almost feel the need to shout to the world that if I can survive this, then I can survive anything. The most awful […]

Toddler Activities-Keep them Busy

I love homeschooling.  I enjoy teaching, planning fun projects, and watching my hard working kids scribbling away at the dining room table. However, as with all things that I love, there come challenges.  How to choose the right curriculum, keep up with my housework, and provide the opportunities that my kids need for educational, social, […]

Embracing Brokenness

” I say unto you, Except a corn of wheat fall into the ground and die, it abides alone: but if it die, it brings forth much fruit”   John 12:24  Growing up, I had absolutely no idea what that meant.  I carefully planted seeds one by one and covered them with dirt.  What happened in […]

Losing Myself in Grief

I get up every morning with the sun (or before as I don’t sleep much these days).  I shower, feed the kids, we work hard at school, we run to piano, swim lessons, the bank, the grocery store.  I smile at all the right people, make the necessary eye contact, and speak politely to the […]

How a Family Christmas Vacation Helped our Grief

I knew our first Christmas without Rebekah would be difficult.  I had no idea what that actually meant, but in anticipation of needing to get away, we booked a couple nights at a large resort several hours from our home.  A Christmas vacation to look forward to and focus on just us might help.  This […]

The Happiest Time of the Year??

Christmas has always been my favorite time of year.  I enjoy the bright decorations and plates of cookies.  I enjoy shopping for the perfect gift and anticipating the joy of the receiver.  I love the secrets, cards, snow, and time with family.  I love the enthusiasm of my kids as they shop for each other […]

Gifts from Heaven

Gifts come in all shapes and sizes.  Some come in brightly wrapped paper, some in a plastic bag and yet others appear on my cluttered desk without any presentation. They are big like the new car my husband parked in our garage as a surprise back in our early years of marriage.  Those were scarce […]

Grief- My Dark Hole

I imagine my grief as a dark hole.  Its a hole in a sand pit.  It’s deep, it’s dark, it’s cold, but mostly it’s scary because I cannot see the bottom.  Some days, I hoist my upper body out of the darkness and breathe in fresh air and sunshine, but most days I live just […]

My Used Books Find

We live in a small town which is void of many of the exciting stores, theaters, museums etc. of a bigger city.  What we do have, however, is a lovely used books store.  It boasts floor to ceiling shelves teaming with exciting adventures, people, and advice on every page.  The smell of old books and […]

Hi, I am Heather! I am a mom of five, homeschooler, homesteader, and lover of all things chocolate. I am excited to share your faith and parenting journeys with you. Whether you are here looking to grow your faith, heal from loss, find homeschool resources, or hope to find inspiration in raising godly children, you are in the right place. So, grab your favorite hot beverage, curl up in your comfy chair, and stay awhile.

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